Friday, May 16, 2008

Poem by E-Man


In 1984, I moved back into 2 Garden Terrace after a few years in Portland, OR and got a job at the Coffee Connection in Harvard Sq. Those who knew the Coffee Connection will remember that it was full of "local color"--bag ladies, Harvard law professors, Reichian therapists, self-taught cryptologists, dark-horse candidates, runaway cult members and Friends of Bill W jockeying for position at the bar, etc. A certain number of the more noteworthy customers--the sort who were given sobriquets like 'The Belcher' and 'Liquid Man'--were current or former tenants at the Terrace.

There was one guy who turned up as a tenant AFTER I first encountered him at the Coffee Connection. I'd dubbed him E-Man for his habit of ordering triple espressos at the take-out register and belting them in one swig. He was a soft-spoken guy, polite but nervous and bug-eyed, always wore a black motorcycle jacket. He worked at Mystery Train records, and we used to chat about girl groups. Then one day, there he was at Garden Terrace visiting someone; and then he moved in. He had a little yellow kitten. The main thing I remember about him living there was that every day he would eat a head of iceberg lettuce and half a can of tuna for dinner, giving the other half of the can to his kitten.

E-Man--his name was really Dave--was not around very long. In another unexamined coincidence, he married the sister of an ex-boyfriend of mine and moved to the Midwest. Here is a poem he wrote, a record of his first visit to Garden Terrace. It was passed on by a friend. Dave, if you're out there, I hope you're doing well, and I hope the lineation is right, and that the scattering of letters in the first few lines was intentional.

--Mimi




AT (for Christina)
H H
ENTRANCE damp night in Cambridge
O A
V leaves rain heavy
E
N blurred lights in mist

the Troll leading the way--to a large house on a
corner--near the Observatory--beside tennis courts--
fences ghostly in fog--smell of October--leaf mold--
brilliance of oil slicks in puddles gleaming--
picked out by passing lights--

the Troll could be--
a well meaning friend . . .

--you'll like this guy--he reads books--does some
drugs--works for the Party at his job at the
Globe

Party guys ain't supposed--

--yeah but he's a writer, too, see--gotta
experience everything

he writes for the Globe--

--Nah--works in the baling room--Union gig--lotta
dough

what's he write--

--stories about the working man Jack

and drugs on the side--

--yeah he's a good shit--needs somebody to talk to

talk's cheap enough--

inside a long stair way mezzanine to mezzanine--a few
girls sitting in a darkened glassed in porch--looking
sideways--

--at the top of the stairs, doors and corridors--
books on
shelves
heaped--smell of a recent shower--dim sounds in rooms--

KNOCKING on the door . . . a muffled voice--

the Troll stood patiently--looking at his new boots--
scuffing a spot of leaf--a scrap of paper--a hint of
mud . . .

. . . door opening
a
crack

sleepy eyes looking out--handsome face--dark hair
in dim light had a sheen to it

--yo I boughtcha a friend--he's cool--reads a lot
man--has a lotta books anyway--the guy i told you
about


long pause . . . eyes focusing . . . head turning
cautious to check the room . . .


Finally . . . the head moved behind the door--door
swung open slowly--

a nice room--desk with lamp, big armchairs, shelves
of books, big bay window looking out to rainy night--
trees, tennis court, distant street lights--giant
bed--boxes of records--

the handsome man moved catlike--flicked with his
foot a syringe under covers hanging from the bed--
looked as though he'd been long dozing--

rain picked up--the Troll lit a cigarette--floppied
in a chair--stared out the window--

moving through the dim lit room--looking at the walls,
the books--

a giant photo of Mayakovsky staring from a corner--

"Four words,
heavy as a blow:
' . . . unto Caesar . . . unto God . . . '
But where can a man
like me
bury his head?
Where is there shelter for me?"

the Troll sat impassive in shadows--smoking--the
handsome man sat slowly down on the bed--his eyes
gleamed--coming awake--catlike movement
coiled in attention--

"I yelled at the sun point-blank:
'Get down!
Stop crawling into that hellhole!'
At the sun I yelled:
'You shiftless lump!
You're caressed by the clouds,
while here--winter and summer--
I must sit and draw these posters!'"


the Troll despite himself stared--cigerette close to
burning clenched fingers--the handsome man's eyes
smoldered--a convulsion slowly rippled his body--he
fumbled for a glass--

(and very cliche
shall have its day
its effects tried and true . . .

the mind wandering . . . has at hand
its few crutches
in a pinch)

girls voices in the hall--windows rain blurred light
streaked--the handsome man--
the Troll had said--
needed someone to talk to--

& so had dug up for him from a basement room near
the Mt. Auburn Cemetery a ghost--
to ventriloquise--for the benefit--of whom?

the Party man--the writer in search of experiences--

a dizzying labyrinth
an abcess in the labyrinth

erupted in space


(--turning eyes to avert the collision--so as not to
untidy the room . . .
an incessant voice shadowing remnants of a life . . .

no desire to leave its corpse on clean rugs--
in a warm room--cozy among covers--
desk lamps and padded chairs--)

the Troll on the way over--had recounted--a confused
story--a labored parable--of "Protective Custody" . . .


"In your
cozy
little apartment world,
curly-heded lyricists sprout in bedrooms.
What do you find in these lapdog lyricists?!
As for me,
I learned about love
In Butryiki . . .


"I
fell in love
with the keyhole of Cell 103
Staring at the daily sun,
people ask:
'How much do they cost, those little sunbeams?'
But I
for a yellow patch
of light jumping on the wall
would thenhave given everything in the world."

the Troll jumped--the cigerette had singed his
fingers--he cursed softly--the handsome man rose
slowly from the bed--his arms arcing
as he moved forwards--

--Comrade! you know Mayakovsky!--
he knows a lot of weird shit--

the Troll was pleased with himself . . . he prided
himself on his surprises--he had a reputation
to keep up--and there might be
something in it for him . . .

the handsome man put out his hands--to shake--and
embrace--he seemed at once solid--and hollow--
a large construction in balsa wood--

the Troll sat perched expectantly--the handsome
man--noticing--turned to a cabinet--pulled out
bottles of imported beer--an opener--
moving to the desk--sliding open a
slim concealed drawer--produced two ampules--

Coversations-- may be worked like toy racing
cars--their speeds controlled--on a plastic track--
with each voice competing--

into the curve the handsome man went--excitedly--
steadying on the straightaway--

the Troll enjoyed such sports--was a one man crowd--

Mayakovsky's photo--large--glowered on the wall--
stop watches in his eyes

the handsome man explained his mission, his work,
his readings--his writings--his
collections of pornography and O!! music--
his car moving fast, lap after lap--curve,
straightaway, curve, straightaway--

the Troll supplied with beers
urging on the drivers--

the photo Mayakovsky's stop watch eyes whirring . . .
rain on windows--girls' voices--warm room--
ampules broken--a red dot on arm--

But the Third Writers' Congress wa troubling--
historical facts muddy myths--and vice versa--
the handsome man revealed--he was a Trotskyite

he had struggles reconciling his duties and his
desires--which he thought could be justified--
by writing--by being an observer and worker
at the front lines--of Party and prose--


--so--and you Comrade--
how do you know Mayakovsky?--
how do you reconcile duties and desires--
do you write--are you political--
my duties and desires
are the same--
--but where did you learn all this--
do you write--do you study--
do you believe in commitment--

the Troll stirred restlessly--uncertain of the
speeding cars--a yellow caution flag in his hands--
gesturing for another beer--

--I was committed--to Protective Custody--
he laughed nervously--

the handsome man waited patiently--serving drinks--
cleaning ashtrays--putting away syringes and spoons--

--pretty good stuff-
-he said--his eyes pinned, a slight smile--I only
get the best anymore--stolen from a hospital--

the hospital heist was legendary--the handsome man
knew someone who knew someone who knew . . .

--but back to Mayakovsky!--he's pretty good stuff
too--

Mayakovsky on the wall--fine bottled beer--the best
of morphine--a slight odor of perfume--nice hardbound
books--comfortable chairs--a big bed--rain rolling
on window pane--outside the Observatory
and tennis courts--

Gorky means the bitter one--
--but Gorky's realism is not developed enough--
it is not easy to develop
bitterness--
--it can be channeled for use--my area of
interest--

the race cars went round and round--no one
would be at the Observatory on a night like this--
the Cemetery leaves must be heavy to brush against
tonight--the tennis courts slippery--

the Third Congress--festered--a scab the handsome man
dug at--morphine and and warmth stirred his
rhetoric--he spoke with lazy passion--
a fascination with distant deaths moved him--

in his panoramic view of history--of literature--
mythological battles were translated into
the facts of everyday struggles--his job--his
writing--myth and history speeding on a plastic
track--competing--for a drunken crowd--

the Observatory this night--had no panoramic view--
the domed roof closed against the rain--only a
seismograph inside registering planetary movements--
dim jottings of fault lines--

through an abcess in time--space rushed in--and in it
time whirred in photographed eyes--a record of light
once there--reprojected in a dim lit room--

through an abcess in skin--a liquid rained in--
mixing in veins to a pumping heart--
the lungs contracted--projecting dreamed images--

wet windows--blurred lights--a mirror on a half
opened closet door presenting their reflections--

room full of images--

--later

the Troll was standing by the door--giving his
customary word of parting--a leap in time seemed
to have occurred--outside the wind had picked up--
the leaves gesturing frantically--making a
transient script of shadows on walls--

writing went on all around--signs everywhere--their
significances muted in wind--among leaves--

an old empty house stood on a corner where two
streets joined in a haphazard diagonal--the railings
of a metal fence punctuated by rust and dents--
its gate held by a padlocked chain--signs plastered
on boarded windows--

--they say it's haunted--

the Troll walked faster when passing it--he had a
few bottles in his pockets--that wouldn't be missed
for a day or tow--all in an evening's work--for the
middleman--

the Troll dropped off and headed North--

--later

--his eyes
asked for a thanks--his hands received opther bottles
not to be missed for a day or two--

the Cemetery with its hill looked like the hump of
the Observatory--surmounted by its tower--a telescope
stretched to clouds--a telescope stretched to clouds--

"If you wish.
I shall rage on raw meat:
or, as the sky changes its hue,
if you wish,
I shall grow irrepraachably tender:
not a man, but a cloud in trousers!"

leaves heavy with rain rustling restlessly--the
night patrol car's lights scribbling tree branches'
shadowed calligraphies on headstones--
among the famous and statued dead--

and far away the State statues of
suicided Mayakovsky stood--

"I feel
my 'I'
is much too small for me.
Stubbornly a body pushes out of me."


Dave Baptiste Chirot

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